Start Afresh

100TH!

2008-11-09T04:33:00.000-08:00

9 Nov

Long time since i blogged. Took me long enough to reach the post. OSEA2008 is coming! http://www.osea-asia.com/ Work work work! OT OT OT! Haha. November and December are the months when everyone is having their birthday! (including mine) Haha! Went to Tsz Yan's and Frances's birthday celebrations (21st and 19th respectively). Mine is in one month's time! Woo Hoo!

Will blog again soon =)

I 'saw'

I gave chase

Then I stopped halfway

So what if I caught up

What can I say

Nothing

F1 Grand Prix

2008-10-02T08:36:00.000-07:00

Oct 2

F1 was great.

Me to You =)

2008-09-29T08:31:00.001-07:00

29 Sept

Ages since i blogged. Will start to blog regularly from 1 Oct.

For now, this is my blog dedication to you LAH! =)

I think girlfriend is cute.

Good night.

Updates!

2008-07-18T22:21:00.000-07:00

Jul 19

Imagine fever, sore throat, gastric pain, cough and flu all in one go =( Damn sick now =/ Anyway, my TP is coming, haven't been going for lessons, got a bad feelings. Went for dinner last night at Robinsons with her =) I am touched!!! Med is making me giddy, shall take my nap =)

Updates!

2008-07-14T18:42:00.000-07:00

July 15

Blogging in the office =/ 3 weeks since I came to SES. Time really files =) Been a long time since I updated. It has been one year since grandma passed away, kinda sad but yeah, this is life =/

On a happier note, went to Gary Cao's "Welcome to my World" concert with my family =) I had a great day and yeap, SUPER HAPPY DAY =) Tp is coming soon, and I haven't been going for revision =/ Ok, back to work! My boss is nearby, HAHA! =)

Updates

2008-07-04T09:33:00.000-07:00

YUM SENG!
I wasn't the last =)

Jul 4

End of first week of attachment =) Guess I am still not quite used to it, kinda get tired easily =/ Anyway, went for ivan's birthday bbq last week =) It was great I thought, long time since i got together with the group, though time spent was not long, every minute was really enjoyable =)

Updates soon! Night =)

First Day!

2008-07-01T06:25:00.000-07:00

Jul 1

Today is my first day in SES. Well, it was a decent start. Colleagues are mostly friendly and nice. That's all for today, I'm tired. NIGHT ! =)

=/

2008-06-29T07:07:00.000-07:00

Jun 29

I'm feeling crappy =(

But you can't feel it.

=)

2008-06-28T23:56:00.000-07:00

Happy =)

Jun 29

Ok Updates! Driving has been good =) HAHA! Haven't been betting these days =) Went to anchorpoint to buy my office wear and stuff, if you are buying G2000 stuff, go there! Its alot cheaper =) Had Billy Bombers for lunch+dinner. Took a walk around IKEA, thinking of how to renovate my room =) Went to Cafe Cartel for desserts and home sweet home =) Its was a long journey back home =/ but I enjoyed my day =) ! Attachment is coming soon! 2 more days =/ nic nic's pic is still unavailable ( SOON SOON ) =) BYE!

Get Smart

2008-06-25T07:58:00.001-07:00

Happy =)

Jun 25

Updates =) Driving has been not really good (something new) Hit the poles twice today =/ Anyway, went to watch Get Smart yesterday, for those who have not watch it, WHAT ARE YOU WAITING FOR!!! Damn funny show la! Caught it with Glenn and Sudhir. After movie we went to the Henderson Waves nearby, my 1st time there. Its a super cool place! Chatted there and took pictures then home sweet home =) Nic Nic's pics coming up soon! I haven got it yet =/ BYE!

=)

2008-06-22T06:02:00.000-07:00

Happy =)

Jun 22

SHATEC LIFE IS OVER! Haha! Driving has been good =) One week of hols and off to SES. Exams has been bad, really really bad. I went out after half an hour for each paper. I had my 'How to be a good Dad" lesson part 1 with Nic Nic =) (Pics of him in the next post) Went to watch Kungfu panda recently too, really funny and I had a really 'Popcorn' experience (inside joke) =) Ok will update again =)

Updates

2008-06-13T06:57:00.000-07:00

Jun 13

Its Friday the 13th! Haha! Anyway, no bad luck today. DW is finally over! 5 more papers and my Shatec life will be over. My 3rd year will be spent in SES (http://www.sesallworld.com/). Driving today was great, all the parking in one go. Haha! Euro 08 wise, WHAT THE HELL IS GERMANY DOING!!! =( Luckily I only lost a dollar =) Okok... I'm done =)

Updates

2008-06-08T07:33:00.000-07:00

Jun 8

Driving has been great! Recently, I keep having headaches at night =( Development workshop Part 1 was great =) Part 2 is tough though =/ Euros is here! Should i bet? nah! i dunno! Anyway i dunno what to say! BYE! =)

Monday

2008-06-02T07:49:00.000-07:00

Jun 2

Projects in the morning, town in the afternoon, home at night =) BYE!

Recap

2008-06-01T06:34:00.000-07:00

June 1

Its been really really really long since i blogged. To the daily readers ( if any ), Sorry yeah? Haha! Anyway, past week has been great. Abacus training at Tanjong Pagar, had lunch at CBD area. People there really chop seats with tissue packet! Haha! Ok la I suaku =/ Abacus exam was easy, doubt can get 95% though. Went back to school on Friday, for projects. I decided to skip the maths lesson. Driving has been progressing well. This is random, I guess everyone knows that West to East journey is kinda far and tiring BUT BUT BUT, I don't mind going over everyday =) Coming 2 weeks will be taken over by development workshops. Btw, this book "Who moved my cheese?" is really good. Go read if possible. Ok thats all for todae =) Will try to not let this blog rot, BYE!

=/

2008-05-21T08:12:00.000-07:00

May 21

I misinterpreted.

Updates

2008-05-18T08:55:00.000-07:00

May 18

Recap! I will start with Mother's Day =) Bought mum a present, shared with sis ( not telling what! ) =) We celebrated Mother's Day at Bollywood Veggies, a farm around krangi. Lunch there was great with all the organic stuff, not much pictures though, forgot my camera =/ Driving is kinda good? finally i reached stage 2! Haha! School this week has been great? i found a good reason to stay in class instead of loitering? HAHA! Friday night went to Bugis with glenn and co. for dinner, it was simple but fun =) Weekends were spent at home =) did my projects and stuff. Parlay wise! I am seriously cutting down? Really really really ( Ahem! ) ok, off to sleep =) tag please =)

Updates

2008-05-08T05:22:00.000-07:00

May 8

OK! LONG LONG TIME SINCE I UPDATE! =/ have been busy and lazy =) yeap, anyway, driving is going well, school is like holiday la! i go school, mark my attendance, then go library or westmall or coffeeshop =) then back to school, sleep, tried my very very best to pay attention and HOME! =) yeah, treasure hunt for the junior DTM this saturday, hope it will be fun =) Mothers' day is coming!!! =) haven't got any presents yet =/ what should i get?! Well, depends on my parlays =) WIN WIN WIN!

Recap

2008-04-27T08:41:00.000-07:00

Apr 27

Ok, Updates! Firstly, i passed my FTT! haha! i passed my POM! got a B grade! SUPERRRRRRRR HAPPY =) Went to FHA on friday, it was organized by SES, the company i will be going for attachment. Soccer with the guys and WE tournament at george's house. School was super boring. i guess this is what my week was about. =) night.

Recap

2008-04-19T21:59:00.000-07:00

April 20

Its been a week since i blogged. Just to recap my week, school was fine, social life is good and everything is getting better. =) I will blog more soon =)

我难过

2008-04-12T22:18:00.000-07:00

那一年默默无言
只能选择离开
无邪的笑容已经不再精彩
你害怕结局所以拼命伤害
说是我挡住你的美好未来
你坚决不希望我等待
我便默默的让你走开
如今你受了伤回来
叫我如何接受这安排
我难过的是放弃你放弃爱
放弃的梦被打碎忍住悲哀
我以为是成全
你却说你更不愉快
我难过的是忘了你忘了爱
尽全力忘记我们真心相爱
也忘了告诉你
失去的不能重来
那一年默默无言
只能选择离开
无邪的笑容已经不再精彩
你害怕结局所以拼命伤害
说是我挡住你的美好未来
你坚决不希望我等待
我便默默的让你走开
如今你受了伤回来
叫我如何接受这安排
我难过的是放弃你放弃爱
放弃的梦被打碎忍住悲哀
我以为是成全
你却说你更不愉快
我难过的是忘了你忘了爱
尽全力忘记我们真心相爱
也忘了告诉你
失去的不能重来
我难过的是放弃你放弃爱
放弃的梦被打碎忍住悲哀
我以为是成全
你却说你更不愉快
我难过的是忘了你忘了爱
尽全力忘记我们真心相爱
也忘了告诉你
失去的不能重来
我难过的是放弃你放弃爱
放弃的梦被打碎忍住悲哀
我以为是成全
你却说你更不愉快
我难过的是忘了你忘了爱
尽全力忘记我们真心相爱
也忘了告诉你
失去的不能重来

If you want to hear the song, please scroll down to the end of the page and play the video.

Random

2008-04-06T03:53:00.000-07:00

Apr 6 失去你的地方

School is starting tomorrow. Its my last term in Shatec, i will have to work hard, and i will =)

Chalet Pics

2008-04-06T03:33:00.000-07:00

Apr 6 beer, beer and more beer =/
C
us
DTM 706
DTM 706

Steamboat
Steamboat
us
random
random

More pics when i feel like =)

Back From Chalet

2008-04-04T09:21:00.000-07:00

Apr 4

Chalet was fun! Pics soon! Stayed at home the whole day, not feeling well. Its 1230am... I should be sleeping with the big headache i am having now but i cant...

cause i am worried...

Exams Are Finally Over

2008-03-30T00:51:00.000-07:00

Mar 30

EXAMS ARE OVER!!! =) Holidays are here! =) ONLY ONE WEEK???????! =( Yup, only one week of hols! =( Anyway, papers were lousy.

Tourism Attraction - Fail or border-line pass

Maths - I don't why i don't know how to do, its like sudden mental block, couldn't think at all. Think I left half of the paper blank. CONFIRM FAIL!

English - Can pass, wrote about Love =/

Travel Agency - Can do, can pass.

POM - Not good, at most border-line pass.

I MUST WORK HARD NEXT TERM!!! but now...

ENJOY! hahahah...

Mon - Chalet Meeting, Lunch with Cheris, Apply for PDL and some stuff to complete

Tue - Chalet and some stuff to complete

Wed - Chalet

Thur - Chalet

Fri - No programmes yet

Sat - No programmes yet

Sun - Family day =)

OK! I wanna go take a nap!

Exams

2008-03-23T07:34:00.000-07:00

Mar 23

The exams are here! POM paper tomorrow, think i can get a border-line pass, same for Travel agency and tourism attraction paper. English, think a 60% pass? Maths? Full marks? Haha! No la, a good pass will do =) Wish me luck!

哭过以后眼泪还是不停的流

Stuck

2008-03-21T09:24:00.000-07:00

Mar 21

Its good friday. Nothing good for me though. I really wanna tell you how i feel, but in the end, i just cant. =/

No Title

2008-03-17T09:26:00.000-07:00

Mar 17

Feeling really weird now =/ Should i be happy or sad? Happy that its all over and i wouldn't have to be tired mentally and physically OR Sad because i did not cherish.

my whole world caved in

I Missed My Chance

2008-03-16T08:07:00.000-07:00

March 16

Its already halfway through March. Its been quite some time already ( at least for me ) and i still can't forget.

這些我都做得到但那個人已經不是我

Saturday

2008-03-15T04:58:00.000-07:00

Mar 15

Its Saturday! No school yesterday as lessons was cancelled =) Went to study and played badminton =) Interview at SES was ok? Selection results will be out in 3 weeks, kinda long. Stayed at home the whole day. Didn't go out with family for dinner, didn't feel like =(

"Its not about trying and trying again, its doing it once, and doing it right". Totally agree! But i missed my chance =(

i miss you, there's nothing i can do for you other than wait

想太多

2008-03-12T09:18:00.000-07:00

你笑着说
他是朋友
但你眼中太温柔
我的不安
那么沉重
只有你不懂
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说我们
不是你和我
是我想太多
你总这样说
但你却没有
真的心疼我
是我想太多
我也这样说
这是唯一能
安慰我的理由
他霸占了你的心中
属于我的角落
所以你说
我们
不是你和我
是我想太多
你总这样说
但你却没有
真的心疼我
是我想太多
我也这样说
这是唯一能
安慰我的理由
我想我没有
错怪了什么
虽然你不说
或许错在我
太晚我才懂
爱了你太多
是我想太多
你总这样说
但你却没有
真的心疼我
是我想太多
我也这样说
这是唯一能
安慰我的理由

Hey

2008-03-11T06:38:00.000-07:00

Mar 11

Hey! Its been quite some time since i blogged, past few days has been... erm... lousy? Other than Liverpool winning Newcastle, i can't think of any positive. Had Botak Jones yesterday, their serving is really huge, almost couldn't finish. Driving wise, not much progress, too busy ( actually lazy ). Have to apply PDL soon. Facing finiancial problem now, i really don't know where i spent all my money, just yesterday, $20 =( on food? Argh! I must start saving AND SPENDING WISELY! Went for badminton today with glenn kian sudhir roy boon mark & fir, was really fun =) but my stamina was lousy! Haha! Tomorrow interview at SES ( Singapore Exhitbition Service ) for my attachment. I DIE DIE WANNA GO THERE! Please Please let me get the job =) Liverpool Inter at 330am, can i wake up? I really wanna watch this match. Having a slight fever now =( Must be the rain =( Nothing to say already, will update when i feel like. Night people!

I miss you

Sad Day

2008-03-05T05:22:00.000-08:00

Mar 5

Today is a sad day. =( Got back two papers, one border-line fail, one border-line pass. I didn't really study but i expected better considering that both papers was really easy. It was raining the whole day, didn't really help my mood. Did a really stupid thing, i don't even know why i did it. Not gonna say here, cause its so so stupid. =( Found out some stuff too, felt abit betrayed? Mr Bok is not happy =( Liverpool vs West Ham, Please win.

March is here!

2008-03-02T04:29:00.000-08:00

Mar 2

Its March already? Times sure files... Anyway, its been a good week for me. NO STRESS WEEK! Haha! This whole week i have been playing, singing, eating, drinking, sleeping... all except STUDYING! Haha! I don't know what to write now but i will update daily, cause i feel so so free! Haha! Bolton vs Liverpool now! Bye! =)

Mr Bok

2008-02-27T07:16:00.000-08:00

Feb 27

Haven't been blogging. English test tomorrow will be the last progress test. Went with Roy and the others for Kbox yesterday. Today, watched Juno with around the same people too. I think the movie is ok la, not too bad. Well, I will bring my bag to school tomorrow, haven't brought the bag to school for 3 days already =/ I am tired. Good Night!

Drifting Apart

2008-02-24T07:12:00.000-08:00

Feb 24

I went to her blog and i think i should stop going there. I tend to think alot after reading =( Yawn, i am skipping the Chelsea-Spurs game. Tired. Good Night!

Faking it

2008-02-23T12:32:00.000-08:00

Feb 24

Its now 4.33am. I am not asleep yet??? I can't get to sleep. =(

Teach me how to fake the =)

Tour Event

2008-02-22T08:13:00.001-08:00

Feb 22

Tour event today! And we did really well! Haha! Good job 0754 Tours! The tour was fun and Mr Norman Hassan really liked it =) Well, we went to haven dinner at long john and drinks at IndoChine, talked alot of cock! Haha! Then the usual emo session... Haha! Well, i have been asking myself what i want in my life. Bring a sulky face to school almost everyday? Nah... No more! Starting from Monday, i will be Happy Mr Bok =)

i cant say you left, cause you were never here.

If Only

2008-02-20T05:21:00.000-08:00

Feb 20 thinking of you

3 papers down. 1st paper was quantitative method for business, got 39/50, but disappointed =(

2nd paper travel agency, was lousy too, talk cock through the paper.

3rd paper today, POM, left after 20 mins plus, no mood to do. Develoment of visitor attractions tomorrow, i haven started studying. The tour on friday, i hope it will be good. Nothing is going right for me, except that Liverpool won Inter 2-0 =)

If only i hadn't made that stupid mistake, if only.

Normal Normal

2008-02-18T06:02:00.000-08:00

Feb 18

Went to A.C.M. AGAIN!!! Argh, this friday will be my last visit this year! Haha! I passed my BTT today! =) AND, i am sick =(

A Lonely Valentine

2008-02-15T04:56:00.001-08:00

0754 Tours ( Fully Booked )
Roy, Me, Glenn

Feb 15

Ok! Updates! Test on Wed was easy, should be able to score. Thursday, SHATEC OPENHOUSE!!! Boring though, set up our booth, practiced presentation, talk cock with everyone. Then came the presentation, was kinda nervous, but in the end, 0754 Tours got the CTIS class =) HUAT AR!!! Haha! It was also Valentine's Day, but its just another day for me =( Today, I FORGOT TO BRING MY BAG TO SCHOOL! Haha! Damn forgetful la! Luckily i put my tie and nametag in my pocket, if not, DP DP DP! =( And today is Total Defense Day too! Haha! Anyway, school was boring. We played cards during lessons, i won $15 =) Haha! Dinner with sudhir and george at westmall. Was suppose to meet john and co. for mahjong but no venue! =( Have to be at A.C.M. at 1230pm tomorrow! So damn tired =( Will update soon! =)

Projects Are Killing me =(

2008-02-12T05:28:00.000-08:00

Feb 12 4th and 5th at Vivo ( HAHA )

Lessons were boring. Test tomorrow, just did some revising. Projects are really killing me, i get tired easily. Project ended around 6 today, went to wang jiao after that with john and melvin. Dad sent me home after that. Yawn, i am tired. Good Night.

Happy New Year Recap!

2008-02-11T04:33:00.001-08:00

Feb 11

New Year's Eve: Half day school, 'flew' home to have reunion lunch with my mum's side, followed by dinner at dad's side.

First day: Stayed at home with family, met john and cheryl for coffee.

Second day: Aunt's house, it was really fun, think it was the first time we gambled =) Haha! But it was also the first time we celebrated without grandma =( Went to father's friends house for visiting, all the uncle and auntie asking the same Qs each year. Haha! Caught a movie after that ( Ah Long Pte Ltd ) with cheryl and john at vivo. talked alot of cock! Haha!

Third day: THE MOST HAPPENING AND TIRING DAY! Woke up really early, cause the clique is coming to my house! =) Prepared food, did a little cleaning, 12pm! Ding Dong! Cheryl was the first. Haha! Then followed by jolyn frances and i forget liao =) Mahjong and cards all the wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyy till 2am!!! Haha! Everyone was talking with the LIAN PANG accent, courtesy of mark lee! Haha! After 2am, went to hao yih house =/ Mahjong and cards again!!! But by then i was too shag to lift a finger, laid on the sofa throughout then home sweet home around 6 plus =)

Overall, CNY was not bad =) Pics and video soon!

Today: Went to Charcoal after school for project. I should really avoid Charcoal if possible, sad place to go to. Anyway, a new year a new start! Quantitative Methods for Business & Economic paper on wed! Study time!!! =)

Happy New Year

2008-02-06T20:46:00.001-08:00

Feb 7

Happy Chinese New Year to ALL! =) Haha! Its a new year, so a new start =)

so lets just let the story kinda end...

BAD BAD HEADACHE!

2008-02-04T06:05:00.000-08:00

Feb 4

I have a really bad headache =(

Sunday

2008-02-03T06:06:00.000-08:00

Feb 3

SUNDAY SUNDAY SUNDAY! I don't like Sunday! Cause the next day is Monday, and i have to go back to school! =( Anyway, soccer tournament yesterday was fun but there was a ugly side to it too. Being the ref is really fun, i gave... erm... 5 penalties! Haha! Then there was a fight between 2 teams, bricks and helmets were involved! No joke! Police came Blah Blah Blah and settled everything. Today went to pay respect to grandpa and grandma, i missed grandma =( Although i have never seen grandpa before, i heard he was a great man, though he had 2 wives. Anyway, its been raining the whole day, great weather for sleeping and i didn't take advantage of it =( WAS STUDYING!!! Haha! Ok, CNY is coming = Ang PowS is coming! =)

Tired

2008-02-01T06:28:00.000-08:00

Feb 1

FIRST OF FEB!!! School sucks! So many more new rules! No eating and drinking in the classroom? KAI WAN XIAO! If they don't allow me to eat, how can i keep myself awake?! Anyway, today is a tiring day because, ... I DON'T KNOW TOO! Haha! Everyday is tiring. Soccer tournament tomorrow! i am the REF! Haha! i expect alot of cards! =) I thought things were getting better, then, it went back to bad =( CNY COME QUICKLY!!!

End Of A Month

2008-01-31T07:05:00.000-08:00

Jan 31

Its been a few days since i blogged. A month has passed. Time really flies. Graduating in 5 months. CNY is coming, i hope it will make me happy. School is still boring, but projects are getting better. Street soccer tournament this Sat should be fun =) Turning in now. Good Night!

Spring Cleaning

2008-01-27T07:46:00.000-08:00

Jan 27

Spring Cleaning today! Super tired! Haha! Wang Jiao with john and melvin and home sweet home! =) Emo days are over, Mr Bok is happy now =)

藉口

2008-01-26T07:56:00.000-08:00

Jan 26

翻着我们的照片, 想念若隐若现

Half-time

2008-01-26T07:54:00.000-08:00

Jan 26

Half-time now! Score is 2-2 =( Disappointing! COME ON LIVERPOOL!

Projects!

2008-01-26T06:35:00.000-08:00

Jan 26

Went to the Project site today. Project is going well =) Had lunch with group at Sakura then project discussions at Charcoal. AND I MADE A MISTAKE! There is a Liverpool game today! =) I realised i am using more vulgarities recently, that's bad considering one of my resolution is to not use vulgarities this year =( OK! LIVERPOOL TIME!

1245 AM

2008-01-25T08:45:00.000-08:00

Jan 26

Its 1245am. Project tomorrow. No Liverpool game =( What should i do? Slack after project? Go help dad with work? Go shooting? Kbox? Wang jiao?

I think i will just sleep at home =)

=)

2008-01-24T07:41:00.000-08:00

Jan 24

I am glad to see you are happy now. I should move on too =)

=(

2008-01-23T06:16:00.000-08:00

Jan 23 =(

I cannot take it anymore! School is really boring! =( I am having a really bad headache now =(

Teach me how to smile =(

=(

2008-01-22T06:38:00.000-08:00

Jan 22

Its not that I can't live without you

Its just that I don't even want to try

Every night I dream about you

Ever since the day we said goodbye

If I wasn't such a fool

Right now I'd be holding you

There's nothing that I wouldn't do

Baby if I only knew

A Normal Day

2008-01-21T05:43:00.001-08:00

Jan 21NIC! =)

School has been really boring! =( Went to wang jiao with john, dunfu and melvin. Then went to john house with cousin cheryl, played with jojo ( his dog ) and NIC ( his nephew )! HE IS SUPER DAMN CUTE! =) Well, lots of things happened recently, i hope it will all go away soon! i am tired =( Ok, Good Night!

Goodbye

2008-01-19T04:30:00.000-08:00

Jan 19growing apart =(

I guess its goodbye.

School is super boring!

2008-01-16T05:48:00.000-08:00

Jan 16

School is super boring! =( Anyway, this post is for mr johnny wu! I got the link for the "letting go" post from his blog! THANKS mr goh =)

Normal Day

2008-01-15T05:18:00.000-08:00

Jan 15

School was boring today =( Went to AMK Hub with sudhir and george. Met mr ricky for lunch. He is damn funny! Haha! =) I didn't went to watch American Gangster with them, tired ar! Then home sweet home. Good Night!

Letting Go

2008-01-15T05:03:00.000-08:00

Jan 15

Letting Go
Author Unknown

To let go doesn't mean to stop caring;
It means I can't do it for someone else.
To let go is not to cut myself off...
It's the realization that I can't control another...
To let go is not to enable,
but to allow learning from natural consequences.
To let go is to admit powerlessness,
which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To let go is not to try and change or blame another,
I can only change myself.
To let go is not to care for,
but to care about.
To let go is not to fix,
but to be supportive.
To let go is not to judge,
but to allow another to be a human being.
To let go is not to be in the middle arranging all the outcomes,
but to allow others to affect their own outcomes.
To let go is not to be protective,
It is to permit another to face reality.
To let go is not to deny,
but to accept.
To let go is not to nag, scold, or argue,
but to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To let go is not to adjust everything to my desires,
but to take each day as it comes and cherish the moment.
To let go is not to criticize and regulate anyone,
but to try to become what I dream I can be.
To let go is not to regret the past,
but to grow and live for the future.
To let go is to fear less and love more.

http://www.inspirationpeak.com/cgi-bin/poetry.cgi?record=77

不值得

2008-01-14T06:49:00.000-08:00

除了想你除了爱你
我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记整理心情
我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你
除了想你除了爱你
我什么什么都愿意
翻开日记打开心情
我真的真的想放弃
你始终没有爱过
你在敷衍我
一次一次忽略我的感受
我真的感到力不从心
无力继续
这感情不值得我犹豫
不值得我考虑
不值得我爱过你
这种回忆不值得我提起
不值得想起
不值得哭泣
这段感情早就应该放弃
早就不该让我浪费时间找奇迹
这样的你不值得我恨你
不值得我为你而坏了心情
我决定不为你而毁了心
不为你而放弃爱情
不为你而毁了心
我决定不为你而毁了心
放弃爱你

School has Started!

2008-01-14T03:11:00.001-08:00

Jan 14 Sandwiches in 3 mins =)

Haven't blogged this few days.

SAT: Went to help out at dad's office.

SUN: Wang Jiao with john.

TODAY: Back to school, not a really good start but i believe it will get better. Projects Projects Projects! Didn't went with george and co. for lunch, no appetite. Reach home, showered. Suddenly hungry, wanted to go out to buy. The moment i stepped out, RAIN! =(

No choice, made a quick sandwich and went back to sleep =)

Normal Day

2008-01-11T06:40:00.000-08:00

Jan 11

Happy Birthday liwen! Cut my hair today, iron all the clothes, did housework and "celebrated" liwen's birthday at plaza mac with the "zoo" gang. Slping soon! lots of things to do tomorrow! Good Night!

Rain

2008-01-10T00:19:00.000-08:00

Jan 10

Its raining =(

Home Alone

2008-01-09T07:23:00.000-08:00

Jan 9

Spent the day at home. Cleaned the whole house =) Packed my room =) Listening to songs the whole day. 心動心痛 is a really nice song but sad la =( Tomorrow will be a better day =) I hope.

心動心痛

2008-01-09T07:17:00.000-08:00

宏:黑夜渗透了想念
偷不走微光闪现的千种画面
我背着伤痛离开
孤单拖着记忆支离破碎
欣:原以为不会改变
眼泪在脸颊上干枯失去知觉
合:我的心挣脱了爱
跟随着夕阳埋进了海洋
合:为什么相爱的人却又为爱而纷争
现实的翅膀扰乱了原本幸福的气氛
我有我的过错
我有我的疑惑
藏在面对面的折磨背后为什么让爱躲进乌云密布的天空
随着风漂流在外一点一点的散落
慢慢远离的梦
渐渐冷却冰封
心痛都当初相遇的心动
合:为什么相爱的人却又为爱而纷争
现实的翅膀扰乱了原本幸福的气氛
我有我的过错
我有我的疑惑
藏在面对面的折磨背后
为什么让爱躲进乌云密布的天空
随着风漂流在外一点一点的散落
慢慢远离的梦
渐渐冷却冰封
心痛都当初相遇的心动
宏:慢慢远离的梦
欣:渐渐冷却冰封
心痛都当初相遇的心动

Wang Jiao

2008-01-08T06:40:00.000-08:00

Jan 8

Its wang jiao today again, with john and cousin cheryl, if i go there again i think i can be member =/ Well, holiday is coming to an end. How will school be this term? Hope it will be good =) All i want for this term is to pass it quickly and peacefully =) Recently i asked myself questions, i regretted what i did in the past =( i tried to move on from it but i am always reminded of it, I am Sorry.

Wang Jiao

2008-01-07T06:49:00.000-08:00

Jan 7

I have been to wang jiao for the past 3 days thanks to mr goh. Stayed at home today and did housework, met john, norman, dun fu, melvin, zhi xiong and shawna. Then home sweet home =)

MR GOH! If you are reading, and we are meeting tomorrow, maybe you wanna try the place beside wang jiao =)

爱错

2008-01-06T08:15:00.000-08:00

北风好不留情
把叶子吹落
坠落的它他选择的逃脱
叶子失去小心
风才感觉寂寞
整个冬天
北风的痛
没人能说
我从来没想过
我会这样做
从来没爱过
所以爱错
我从那里起飞
从那里降落
多少不能原谅的错却不能从来过
翻开回忆角落
忘记的生活
以为幸福都可以掌握
仔细回味当初
那个故事背后
喔原来是我
犯下从没真的爱错
我从来没想过
我会这样做
从来没爱过
所以爱错
我从那里起飞
从那里降落
多少不能原谅的错却不能从来过
真的受未你的世界
喔...找不会那些感觉
其实我不想到别
那些过去我从来没想过
我会这样做从来没爱过(从来没有爱过那么认的)
我从那里起飞从那里降落(降落)
多少不能原谅的错却不能从
从来没想过
我会这样做
从来没爱过(爱过)
所以爱错(所以爱错)
从那里起飞(爱错爱错爱错baby)
从那里降落多少不能原谅的错
请你原谅我的爱错

Sunday

2008-01-06T07:42:00.000-08:00

Jan 6

Bbdc in the morning. Slacked at home. Had tea with john at wang jiao, once again talk cock. Haha! Its now 11:40pm, listening to my blog song, kinda emo =( Hope the sun will come out quickly.

A Normal Day

2008-01-05T07:34:00.000-08:00

Jan 5

Went to bbdc with john in the afternoon. Saw norman and some Shatec people. Practice today, 4 booklets, pass 3. Then had lunch with john at plaza, Twice! Damn full. Had the usual talk cock session with him. Haha! Suppose to get my PS3 today, but then gamemaster didn't have the game i wanted, so maybe will get it next week. Turning in now, basic theory lesson 2 in the morning. Good Night =)

如果你也听说

2008-01-04T19:56:00.000-08:00

突然发现站了好久
不知道要往哪走
还不想回家的我
再多人陪只会更寂寞
许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我的快乐要被认可
委屈却没有人诉说
夜半信仰丛白剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多
如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得
又无可奈何
如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔
许多话题关于我
就连我也有听过
我想我宁可都沉默
其实反而显得做作
夜半信仰丛白剥落
拿掉防卫剩下什么
为什么脆弱时候
想你更多
如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我
好多好多的话想对你说
悬着一颗心没着落
要怎么附和
舍不得
要无可奈何
如果你也听说
会不会相信我
对流言会附和
还是你知道我还是我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔
如果你也听说
有没有想过我
想普通交朋友
还是你依然会心疼我
跌跌撞撞才明白了许多
冷漠的人就你一个
想到你想起我
胸口依然温柔
如果你想起我
你会想到什么

So So Day =/

2008-01-04T05:17:00.000-08:00

The Shooting Club

Jan 4

Happy Birthday Zhi Wei! Haha! Woke up really early today to help the Fajar Shooting Club. Had alot of fun with the Sec 1, saw lots of teachers, Mr Yong, Mr Ong, Mr Ng and many many more! Haha! After that went to plaza, saw alot of fajar and ex-fajar friends =) I saw Queenie too! Haha! Weird to see her in plaza. Then, I met my best friend CHERIS =) Haha! Met for coffee at starbucks and had a great talk cock session with her! Haha! Then went to hao yih house for some 'recreation' activities =) Had Mac for dinner and then home sweet home =)

Kenny Rogers

2008-01-03T07:23:00.000-08:00

Jan 3

Stayed at home from morning till late afternoon. Had dinner with samm, joyce, sudhir, george, jason and ben at Kenny Rogers Suntec. =) Had a great talk cock session with them =) Turning in now, helping out with the rifle team tomorrow at Fajar Sec. Its been a long time since i went back, so kinda looking forward. =) Good Night!

7am

2008-01-02T15:37:00.000-08:00

Jan 3

Its 7am. 而我已经分不清你是友情还是错过的爱情 =(

Hungry

2008-01-02T14:11:00.000-08:00

Jan 3

Its 5am in the morning and i am awake. Guess i slept too much yesterday. Just had some bread, really hungry. Nothing much for me to eat. Meeting the Shatec people for dinner later =) Will eat till i am super bloated! Haha! Well, its raining now and i am not emo =) Hope it stays this way.

Sick

2008-01-02T05:54:00.000-08:00

Jan 2

Having holidays now. Went to BBDC early in the morning for lessons. Saw quite a few people, norman, shandy and some Shatec schoolmates. Went to the clinic with Dad after that, we are both having a fever =( Slept through the whole afternoon. Just had medicine, turning in now. Good Night =)

軌跡

2008-01-01T04:51:00.000-08:00

怎么隐藏
我的悲伤
失去你的地方
你的发香
散的匆忙
我已经跟不上
闭上眼睛
还能看见
你离去的痕迹
在月光下一直找寻
那想念的身影
如果说分手
是苦痛的起点
那在终点之前
我愿意再爱一遍
想要对你说的
不敢说的爱
会不会有人可以明白
我会发着呆
然后忘记你
接着紧紧闭上眼
想着那一天
会有人代替
让我不再想念你
我会发着呆
然后微微笑
接着紧紧闭上眼
又想了一遍
你温柔的脸
在我忘记之前
心里的眼泪
模糊了视线
你已快看不见

2008

2008-01-01T04:05:00.000-08:00

Jan 1

Its 2008! New year resolutions.

1. Get my driving license by july.

2. Study hard.

3. Hit at least 590 for Air-Rifle.

4. Spend wisely.

5. Stay single.

6. Do some voluntary work.

7. Keep my room neat and tidy.

8. Have only 3 meals a day

9. Exercise regularly.

10. Spend more time with family and friends.

11. Stop all the emo stuff =)

12. Stop gambling.

13. Stop drinking.

14.Try not to say too much vulgarities.

I Am Back =)

2007-12-30T03:46:00.000-08:00

Dec 30 With Sis & Panda!!!

Ice Ice Ice ! ( Panda too! )

The background is all made from ice !

Travelling around Old Beijing, Hutongs, on a trishaw

At Wangfujing, with Sis

Mao Ze Dong

Quan Ju De ( Famous for Beijing Roast Duck )

The Family

On the Luquoqiao =)

These words are written by QIAN LONG !!!

The Family at Luguoqiao

Luguoqiao 800 years old

Olympic Park { Background, if you can see =) }

Gu He Yuan

Forbidden City

Inside the Forbidden City

Tiananmen Square

I was forced to do this =/

The Family at Tiananmen Square

The Great Wall & Sis The Great WallThe Great Wall

Overall, Beijing was So-so. =)

Bye Singapore!

2007-12-22T09:21:00.001-08:00

Dec 22

Today is my last day in Charcoal. It was really fun, kinda sad to leave but we have to move on. Today is also a happy day for me, why? I am not sure too =)

I will be leaving for Beijing soon and coming back on the 30th, so any countdown parties remember to invite me ya? Haha!

Random

2007-12-20T00:42:00.001-08:00

Dec 20

Found this on the web =)

=(

2007-12-19T23:57:00.000-08:00

Dec 20

Mr Bok is SAD =(

2008, Please Come Quick.

2007-12-19T21:07:00.000-08:00

Dec 20

Happy Birthday Shaun! Aiya! Haha! Haven't been blogging, really lazy. Work has been boring. I wish 22 Dec will come quick! Leaving for Beijing, I hope the trip will brighten up my mood =)

Went to Rosette for dinner yesterday, $30 each, food wasn't really nice, kinda regretted going.

I am searching for an answer, i hope i will have it by the time i return to Singpore.

Shall stop here =)

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL! =)

Come On Bok Zhi Kai!

2007-12-11T05:50:00.000-08:00

Dec 11

just a random pic =)

Its been raining for the past few days. I have been thinking of alot of things. I used to be really happy when i was in sec school, i have a group of really good friends, nice teachers and a great girlfriend.
Things change after i came to Shatec, no doubt there are pros and cons, i matured alot, got to know lots of new friends, but, that happiness i used to feel no longer exist.
2007 has been a lousy year for me really, i lost alot of stuff and people. Grandma left, she left, i changed. No longer can i smile everyday, i lose my temper easily, irritate people and myself, thus giving people a impression i am not serious and my words were not taken seriously. I don't know what caused the change, but, I will change for the better. Now that i am 18, i am no longer a kid, there is going to be alot of responsibility. I can no longer fool around, still having the happy-go-lucky attitude. Have to think for my future, what i want.
I want to get a good job, a good wife, then have a family. When i am more experienced in the Tourism industry, i hope, to open an event company. Its a dream now, but i am quite sure i can make it happen if i work hard. So its now study study study! =)
Love has taken a backseat, at least for these 2 years.
Its hard, but i will get over it =)

So Close.

2007-12-10T06:14:00.000-08:00

Dec 10

You’re in my arms

And all the world is calm

The music playing on for only two

So close together

And when I’m with you

So close to feeling alive

A life goes by

Romantic dreams will stop

So I bid mine goodbye and never knew

So close was waiting, waiting here with you

And now forever I know

All that I wanted to hold you

So close

So close to reaching that famous happy end

Almost believing this was not pretend

Now you’re beside me and look how far we’ve come

So far we are so close

How could I face the faceless days

If I should lose you now?

We’re so close

To reaching that famous happy end

And almost believing this was not pretend

Let’s go on dreaming for we know we are

So close

And still so far

So Close.

2007-12-09T06:37:00.000-08:00

Dec 9

Thanks to all who wished me! Really appreciated. Lots of presents! Haha! Pics soon! I am 18 now, can take car license! Haha! I think i have matured alot since coming to Shatec, maybe still childish, but i learnt to cherish people and everything i have. =) Haha! Thanks for helping me count down again =)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

2007-12-08T08:46:00.000-08:00

Dec 9

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOK ZHI KAI! Haha! Had dinner at Taka with Soon Leng, Norman, John, Ivan and Jian Hong. Thanks guys! Its 12 and lots of people msg me! Wishing me, THANKS TO ALL! (: One of them countdown for me, THANKS! Was really touched (: Ok, going to sleep now! HAPPY ME!

A Normal Day

2007-12-06T05:52:00.000-08:00

Dec 6

Worked in the mid shift today. Nothing much, served a few people, cleared some function at the Ministry of Law, set up the restaurant for a company dinner, then to Mac with SFTs and joyce. I had McChicken meal TWICE today. =)

Its hard not to think about her. =(

Happy Birthday Mum! =) Part 2

2007-12-05T07:15:00.000-08:00

Dec 5

Back from the briefing. It was so so so boring. It has been raining the whole day. Celebrated mum's birthday. Didn't go with brandon and co. to serangoon for drinks, too tired. Shall turn in now. =)

Happy Birthday Mum! =)

2007-12-05T00:18:00.000-08:00

Dec 5

Happy Birthday Mum! Haha! Worked in the morning shift today. Served some weird people from BNI, think it stands for Business Network Interaction. Anyway, went to search for a birthday cake for mum. Finally, bought a cake from Four Leaves. Going for the briefing for Beijing trip now, don't really wish to go cause its at Chinatown! So far! Haha! Ok, gotta go! =)

Friends.

2007-12-04T08:27:00.000-08:00

普通朋友

词曲: David Tao

等待
我随时随地在等待
做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问
这是爱
我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
我愿意改变 (what can I do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me change)
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能收手
但你说
I only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
So I
我不能只是be your friend
I just can't be your friend
我猜
你早就想要说明白
我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊
多无奈
我愿意改变 (what can I do?)
重新再来一遍(just give me change)
我无法只是普通朋友
感情已那么深
叫我怎么能收手
但你说
I only want to be your friend
做个朋友
我在
你心中只是just a friend
不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白
但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
So I
我不能只是be your friend
I just can't be your friend
no,no,no,
我不能只是做你的朋友
不能只是做普通朋友

Stammer =(

2007-12-03T07:31:00.000-08:00

Dec 3

Well, I have to open up and not stammer always. =(

A Normal Day

2007-12-03T03:25:00.000-08:00

Dec 3

Happy Birthday Sam! Haha! Finally, a tagboard. My blog is not rotting ok! (: Morning shift this week. I kinda enjoy morning shift, just go there, have breakfast and go home! Haha! Mum's birthday is coming soon too, so many people born in Nov and Dec! So many presents to get. Anyway, i went home straight after work today, was suppose to meet Jayne but i was lazy. Slept in the afternoon and i am sleeping soon! Have to be up at 5 :( BYE!

Come On Bok Zhi Kai!

2007-12-01T18:46:00.000-08:00

Dec 2

Had been drinking for the past 2 days due to george's birthday. This is certainly not me. What am i doing? Drinking for the past 2 days? This may be nothing or common for others, but to me, its something i never thought i would do. 1st night was at INDO CHINE. Had a tiger, nothing much. Had a great chit-chat session with joyce, sudhir, george, jason. The SFTs and samm was there too, but they left first to eat. 2nd night was at THE CREW ROOM, a pub in katong. After that, home. Cab fare was $28. =(

First Post

2007-11-29T07:36:00.000-08:00

29 Nov

Well, my first post. My name is Bok Zhi Kai, Singaporean. Haha! Ok, got up at 11. Went to buy lunch for sis. Went to school to pass her the jay chou's album. Went to work at charcoal. Mr Lua let me off early. 2 HOURS early! Haha! Home.